Well, been rotting these few days at home and in cybercafes, pool, and hanging out doing nothing. Gave me time to think bout stuff.
First of all, I feel that I have no direction in life. I think maybe its the way I live my life that gave me this feeling. Instead of doing something, I rather just lie flat, facing the ground doing nothing. Sloth. Oh well, I asked for it. But recently it made me think. All these computer games and lifeless activities of mine. Its really making me think, what the hell am i gonna do with my life. I, for once in my all-planned out life of mine is clueless of what I want to do in the near future. Well, get a nice job, duh, but its just damn irritating just to think about it. I got this dude, he knows what he wants in life. He choses the way he wants to live his life. Sometimes i envy him. *cough* kevin *cough* Hahahaha..
Yea, I like his room. It’s all filled with motivation instead of posters showing his fav celebs. He has this nice lil table and right above it, is like walls filled with papers of motivational “thingys”, well, ignoring the fact that he might not read it and just put it up there during the past. (hahahaha) Its still full of energy. Well, maybe I don’t have a room of my own, that’s why I cant afford to put a bloody table in my room. Yea, I’m still sharing a room with my bro. zzzZZZzzzzz… Can’t wait to either move out or wait for him to move out. I love my room. So i hope he moves out. *laughs*
Well, I dont know what to do in fact. and for the first time in my fraking life, I’m sort of clueless of my direction and aims now. It has been going on for sometime now. Living just for the heck of living. (Am I procrastinating?) Well, If i am, damn it. But if I’m not, Crap this is bad.
Comments on anythin would be helpful. thanks in advance.
