Well, been rotting these few days at home and in cybercafes, pool, and hanging out doing nothing. Gave me time to think bout stuff.
First of all, I feel that I have no direction in life. I think maybe its the way I live my life that gave me this feeling. Instead of doing something, I rather just lie flat, facing the ground doing nothing. Sloth. Oh well, I asked for it. But recently it made me think. All these computer games and lifeless activities of mine. Its really making me think, what the hell am i gonna do with my life. I, for once in my all-planned out life of mine is clueless of what I want to do in the near future. Well, get a nice job, duh, but its just damn irritating just to think about it. I got this dude, he knows what he wants in life. He choses the way he wants to live his life. Sometimes i envy him. *cough* kevin *cough* Hahahaha..
Yea, I like his room. It’s all filled with motivation instead of posters showing his fav celebs. He has this nice lil table and right above it, is like walls filled with papers of motivational “thingys”, well, ignoring the fact that he might not read it and just put it up there during the past. (hahahaha) Its still full of energy. Well, maybe I don’t have a room of my own, that’s why I cant afford to put a bloody table in my room. Yea, I’m still sharing a room with my bro. zzzZZZzzzzz… Can’t wait to either move out or wait for him to move out. I love my room. So i hope he moves out. *laughs*
Well, I dont know what to do in fact. and for the first time in my fraking life, I’m sort of clueless of my direction and aims now. It has been going on for sometime now. Living just for the heck of living. (Am I procrastinating?) Well, If i am, damn it. But if I’m not, Crap this is bad.
Comments on anythin would be helpful. thanks in advance.
Well… since you realise that, then just start plan about it now.
If you have no idea how to start, haha.. you know the best fellow to ask>> Mr. Kevin. I’m sure he has some great books to recommend you or he himself is good enough to enlighten you.
Hope you find your ‘future’ soon..
take care.
Comment by chin ying — 18 May, 2008 @ 3:47 pm
Well, I think your biggest enemy is the sloth in you. Kicking him out of your life might help. You know I went to this exam skills talk that day and the speaker said don’t delay the things you have to do, get it started and once you’ve started it, it’ll be easier to keep on doing it. ;P
Comment by Pynk — 18 May, 2008 @ 3:59 pm
Ill be the odd one out.
There will be a day in the not too distant future, when you’re chasing deadline, closing deals, meeting clients, shouldering responsibilities, whether career or family, and you’ll be saying :
WHERE WAS MY YOUTH
kick back, relax, take time too look around. Savour while it’s still there. Every person has a meaning in life. Something he has to do. Some thing invisible thread of fate endowed to him from the way he opened its eyes to this world and that sir, is what we bipedal carbon beings call
FATE
Okay, i’m just finding an excuse for being lazy, but hey, who isnt
Each to their own pace and whatnot
Comment by V — 18 May, 2008 @ 8:31 pm
If u don’t have a direction, i m sure u’ll feel BORED!!! you u plan well for urself, in anyway! crack ur brain and think of it….do something that u really like and benefit for urself present and future..
good luck and all the best to u!
Comment by wee ping — 20 May, 2008 @ 7:24 pm
haha.. dont we all feel direction-less at some point.. it’s normal..
know that cars at night without streeetlights see the road in front with their headlights, though its a short sretch, in the end u will find your way.. so just take a step at a time now..
Comment by ZiKEn — 29 May, 2008 @ 10:13 pm
No need to plan, just live in the present moment. Because past is already past, and future is out of touch.
Comment by Kevin Tan — 1 June, 2008 @ 12:00 am