16/12/2009 (Wednesday)

1400 (2hours)

UAPP3023 SUBSTANCE ABUSE

PC203 (seats 104-107)

21/12/2009 (Monday)

0900  (2hours)

UAPP3043 DISORDERS OF CHILDHOOD AND ADOLESCENCE

PC203 (seats 1-114)

I was born in the year of the Earth Dragon, 1988.

DRAGON FACTS:

People born in the Year of the Dragon share certain characteristics. The Dragon sign is an abbreviated way of characterizing that individual’s personality. Following are features associated with the sign of the Dragon.

CHARACTERISTICS

• Innovative
• Enterprising
• Flexible
• Self-assured
• Brave
• Passionate
• Conceited
• Tactless
• Scrutinizing
• Unanticipated
• Quick-tempered

THE EARTH DRAGON 1928 AND 1988

Earth Dragons make great managers because they are practical, levelheaded and demonstrate a knack for organizing. They still have the need to dictate and be admired, but they are affable, congenial and supportive. Compared to other Dragons, Earth Dragons are less likely to breathe fire at the least irritation. They will work diligently to complete their life goals. The Earth element adds a greater portion of self-control to the Dragon’s personality and usually the Earth Dragon is deserving of the respect he or she desires. These Dragons take their life and romantic responsibilities quite seriously.

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With Dragon blood, it seems that I have “self-control”. I’mma bout to go insane. @.@

I wanna hug my girl so much!

Recently I dreamt about her in a white dress and me in a black suite. I wonder. What is it telling me.

I miss her.

Where am I now? What am I going to do in my later life?

Sometimes I question myself. As days go by, life is getting into a new stage for me. My effing study life is about too end soon. Too soon I guess. I ain’t prepared for this yet. Sigh.

As a saying that I would always remember till death, “Life goes on!”

Kev

Life for me has always been flowing with the wind. East, North, West, or South. I would just fly along like dandelions surfing the wind.

I would put my life as care-free, easy, simple, and maybe relaxed. For the present.

We all know, life is tough, life is hard, and life is never simple.

I know that too. My time would come, where I would feel the full force of life crashing down on me. Soon or later.

Time. Is time an important factor that contributes to life?

I guess so. At this point of life, I feel that time is irrelevance to me. I feel that time would just fly along me.

BUT I guess that’s not right.

For the first time in my life, I was shocked and amazed by this lady that I meet during an interview.

Why?

She was just chatting with me. Asking me questions, and answering mine. Listening to me talk about my life, the way I think and how I function.

For that 1hour. She actually told me about my weakness and my strength without even telling me.

I was shocked beyond words. The only people that knows me that well to know how I work are the people close to me.

My mom, dad, Girl, close guys.

Nobody. Absolutely Nobody outside this circle knew who was I.

My wall was broken down. In that instance, I knew that in reality, I am just a simple little nothing.

So, for now, I would try to feel what my life is all about.

Do you know where you are?

So the previous tide has subside. the shore of the sandy beach is now at sight. Although buildings destroyed, lives taken away, or fishes dying on land without water. The tide has now subside.

However, radar indicates that a new wave is coming. This time, even bigger. People is Stephen’s ville has started to build up defenses and prepare to face it. The reason they are not moving to higher ground is because they know, they have to face this wave no matter what. They don’t have a choice. They don’t have the time. Its to fight or to die.

They have chosen to fight.

Choices we make in life would determine the happiness we receive.

Even though some times in life, choices are hard to make. But, there they are staring at you in the face.

Like it or not, they would always be there.

So,

After a long, time and time getting worked out by this kind of shit. I finally decided to make my choice.

Believe it or not, patience, forgiveness, love and also being nice can all lead to one thing.

Stress.

Tonight, would be the last stand for me. I have been telling you. Even to the extend of begging you. To at least tell me that you are safe. Just a simple msg would do.

I have been trying to call you since 3am(+8 GMT). The time is now 5.11am(+8 GMT)

So fuck yes. All I get when I call your phone is,

“This person’s phone is currently unavailable, please send a text or call later.”

NOW its,

“This person’s phone is switched off, please send a text or call later.”

or

That irritating Fucked up sound that means your phone is really turned off.

I really don’t care if your phone is dead or you don’t have enough credit to tell me. You went there with your friends, they would help out IF you asked? Find Something? The internet?

This is really fucked up. Now they are telling me your phone is off. First it was unavailable, now its OFF?

You make me worry sick about you. Over and over and over again. I don’t want to NOt be able to sleep at night just because you are having the time of your life there and me stuck here? Do you even know how hard that is?

Not trusting in Long Distance Relationship you say? Now i’m saying for the first time in our entire relationship.

FUCK YOU. If you don’t make it work would it work? By doing this kind of shit over and over again.Oh sure by all means.

I pray to God, you read this post by the time I wake up. Or else you’d know whats coming for you.

No one can toy with my emotions. No one can disrupt my thought but you. You are the only one i trusted. You know what I dislike and what I hate the most. It is these times, when you really need to evaluate what is fucking hell are you doing to make this relationship hold.

I know I’m doing my part. What about you?

You know erasing someone from my memory is a very simple thing for me.

I dare you not to make me do to it to you. and I hope I do not have to do it. After all the things we have gone through.

By writing this post you best believe I am very angry and pissed off by now.

Remember the times when you say family is the most important thing or people in ones life?

Bullshit. They are when they need you or want company. Like hell they are important.

See, My argument is, humans are all the same. They have this basic instinct that they are more important than other people. Mind you being who I am and knowing this, I do try to not be so self centered. Anyway, parents for one, they are our pillars, our teachers, our preachers, and also the people who love us the most.

Fact : True.

but, they also have the power to turn children into heartless zombies. Talking from experience, they sort of “assume” their kids do not “change” just because we have always been asking for more when we were little. I do admit when I was a kid, I was spoiled. Humanity has change my views of life, and I find it quite idiotic for them to think that we will not change. Not overgeneralizing the parents out there, I seriously think that deep down in them, most of them would tend to have that mentality that we, their children would want something whenever we approach them.

Correct me if I’m wrong but this is what I know for a fact.

One fine day:

I just walk downstairs wanting to share this great idea i had for my car audio modification. Guess what. Before even hearing the second sentence I can utter, my mom stopped me from saying anything and just said, “No, Forget it, Please don’t do anything to your car, I dont have the money to give you.”

Feelings : WHAT THE FUCK?

Thoughts : I am having a conversation with you. I DON’T USUALLY talk to you. You know that, that is a problem. I would be in front of my laptop almost all my life. All I wanted was to have a talk of my future planing and my car.

Assumptions: Maybe it’s because I don’t normally talk to them. They would feel like, “When, I’m talking to them means I want something from them.”

Ending :

If that’s the case so be it. As of now, I would not be talking to you fuckfaces anymore than if I have to. Until I move out and you fuckfaces misses me or some shit like that, or so I doubt it. I will only leech from you what I want and give you the shit of your lives. Have fun.

http://www.aimini.net/view/?fid=aHkB11Vs31IIyAlSR5rc

Its been a year.

Times flies huh? Its so difficult not being in your arms anymore.

Your scent is so easily forgettable. I miss your voice.

I miss you constantly reminding to study hard and not disappoint you.

I cry throughout this year. I sometimes shout out to God asking him why did he take you away. Its not fair. You didn’t even say goodbye. You could at least tell me that you were going. Why did you have to leave? You told me you wanted to see me graduate. You told me you wanted to be there and be proud of me. You promised me! Where are you now? It’s just not the same anymore!

I’m sorry I failed you. I told you I’d study hard and get good greats for you, but I just can’t do it. Working hard for me seems so impossible. I’m just too lazy. I don’t know what are you planning up there with Him, but it seems that my life now is getting more and more hectic by the moment. Cut me some slack? Give me a sign?

I remembered when I was small I used to sleep with you and you would turn on that old radio of yours. And every time I would make some noise with the choices of music that you listen. Oldies. Very old oldies. You loved them so much. Every night I would make noise asking you to change the channel but you wouldn’t. So I had to choice but to listen to them with you singing away. Its been so long..

I miss you so much.Every time when I look up to the sky and see the clouds, I would wonder, are you up there looking down on me. Guiding me with your silent prayers like you have always done for me.

Poh poh..

Happy One year anniversary.

I love you.

monsters by Ckirden large

I feel this is the world today. So many people, so many difference faces, so many ideas, so many attitudes.

It is a good thing ; It is also a bad thing.

“Let none find fault with others; let none see the omissions and commissions of others. But let one see one’s own acts, done and undone.” — Dhammapada

Yoshiko Kajitani at Home in Tokyo   (Taken from http://www.theselby.com/)

The thought of Humans to me is that Humans are like of a bird in a cage.

*Assuming* That a caged bird wants freedom, it longs for freedom. Everyday and everynight it wishes that its master opens the door of the cage. When the master actually opens the gate. The bird does not dare to fly away.

“No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path.” — Buddha

Gary Hustwit By Objectified

Do you not agree that the material world is on the top now?

People are so caught up in the material world that they forget, when they die, the material world does not follow them to where they would go.

“Your worst enemy cannot harm you as much as your own unguarded thoughts.” — Buddha

Taken from http://wasting.tumblr.com/

Often people would feel fear when things are not going their way, how they plan, or how they foresee.

But what they do not know is their path is already planned out for them.

Fear is a feeling that people worry but God is constantly reminding us that he is guiding us.

Taken from http://www.wordboner.com/

Life is all about ups and downs.

Emotions are feelings one choose to feel. Feeling happy, sad or anger are choices made by people.

It would determine your course of action and your future. Choose wisely.

“You will not be punished for your anger, you will be punished by your anger” — Buddha

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From http://weheartit.com

Friends are there for you.

Life is all about the people around you.

We were created not to be better than the rest.

We were created not to fight among ourselves.

We were created perfectly.

We were created to cherish and love one another.

We were created to help each other live for another day.

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So close yet so far.

My Love, My heart is yours.

There was a time where everyone was so close that holding hands with a stranger was totally fine.

There was a time when everyone can dine in anyone’s house and everyone would have fun.

There was a time when friends share difficulties and life stories among each other without any restriction.

There was a time when no one was lonely and everyone had friends everywhere in the world.

There was a time where all animals live in harmony with humans and would roam the land freely.

There was a time how people accepted everyone and share their differences together.

There was a time where technology advance beyond recognition because everyone help changed it.

There was a time.. ….. ….

There will be a time where all of these were to exist and everyone would support everybody in living, no matter where, who, how, when.

There will be the time where humans would come to realisation that all of the things they do now are just a way to live the cycle and not ways to conquer one another.